It's that time of the year again ; where seasons come to and end, where everyone will one day reminiscense about the activities that they had during the year itself, where people might not want to even remember the year. Indeed, this happens every year and nobody can escape it. I guarantee you that, unless you're dead. 

Well, I've had a pretty rough year in 2011 but I also had the time of my life in 2011. Being with someone that I once had was a good start to the year. The good and the bad, it was worth it until a certain point. School being the worst time of my year for me, I choose not to remember it. It really hits me that I'm already 18 (technically I'm just 17) and the year really passed by so fast. I still remember myself saying this, "I never thought that this day would actually come. I should have studied harder". Everyone has flaws anyway. I felt so free once everything was done. Oh screw it. 

I've come to a point where I finally realize that my imagination runs a little too wild and I'm not doing anything to achieve my dreams. Not much of it anyway. There was a quote, but I can't remember it. Shows how detereorated my memory is. Tertiary education is such a pain in the butt. I'm still stoned to what I want to do. I'm grateful and thankful that I actually managed to get into Hobart College with such lousy results. Homestay doesn't sound too bad. I mean, Aussie girlfriend. HAHA I'm just kidding. Seriously. Probably some time to really focus and learn as much as I can from my foster family. Is that the right term? Foster? Meh.

Yeah well, 2011 has had its ups and downs. Not complaining much like I did in Novemer. All in all, it was a GOOD year. A year that God has made and is going to continue making the years to come. Good friends, family, aqquantainces, name it. I've probably had too much of an adventure in 2011 and should be toning down a bit. There's so many things to do in such little time. Commitment. Perserverance. To count the blessings that God has given me this year, I think I'd rather not because I know that there has been a lot of it. Most which I have missed or maybe just didn't notice. 

Ah well, 2012. Bring it on. I don't get what people are so afraid of. It's just another year people. Who you gonna trust? The words of God or the words of man? I'm gonna stand strong in 2012. 

Putting my faith in You.

Phil 1:6 "And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue His work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns."

My latest craze. Or... probably my latest crush other than Jayesslee..

Presenting...

CATHY NGUYEN! Yes, I took this from Google which actually links to a Tumblr. Isn't she just adorable? And pretty.. *drools*.

I probably can't remember whether I had a post with the same title. But anywho, nobody really cares.

So the first week of SPM just ended and might I say I think I've already bagged in 4As provided it actually happens. Hopefully this confidence that I have doesn't cease during next week's paper. Just five more subjects to go, and I can officially call Form 5 over! Hurrah! Yield be unto thee!

Just recently, my application to Hobart College was sent and hopefully by the grace of God, I'm accepted into their college ; with my oh-so wonderful testimonial from my teacher. A huge leap in a brand new place! I shan't miss my schooling years. Maybe I'll reminiscence a little but it's only the friends that kept me alive in that place in the first place.

Should I be missing the friends that I have in Penang? That's a thought. Of course, I'll be missing many of them especially the ones I've stayed close to in school. Church..? Maybe. Maybe not. Who knows. It's not like I make much of a difference there anyway.

Another few papers, and I'm free. Off to a brand new start.

DOOM IS BACK! DOOM IS BACK! RUNNNN~!

Dota2, when will I get my beta key?

This cover is really beautiful. My heart practically melted when I listened to it. 

Ahhh... Thank God for them.

Okay. I have no idea why my title is Excessive Racks. Must be because I'm a guy and racks seem to attract me. If you know what I mean. LOL! Come on now, don't tell me that you guys, and just guys, aren't attracted to racks. :x

ANYWAY! It has been a long time since I've updated this blog. I have another blog and if you're smart enough to find it, so be it. So just some major updates.

1. SPM is in 19 days. Oh the horror. For some of you who may or may not know what's SPM,  it's Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia or something like that. I don't even know myself. HAHAHA. But it's a very important exam for us Form 5 students, or if I'm not mistaken Year 11 or Year 12 students in another translation to get out of where we are and to further our studies. And so, I am NOT prepared. But I think I'll do just fine. My results may not be like my siblings but who cares. 

2. I wear a wrist guard to play games now. Yes, a wrist guard, to prevent pain on my left wrist. CTS? Maybe. BUT IN JESUS NAME IT WILL NOT BE CTS.

3. I was told to forget someone.

4. My electric guitar's intonation is out.

5. I don't feel at home at my church anymore. THIS IS BADDDDD~!

6. I don't know whether I should or should not.

7. I've been slacking a lot in many areas.

8. I've gotten closer to my primary school friends this year but losing my friendship with others. 

9. People want to beat me up but don't have the balls to do it. All talk only.

10. This is all..

Okay, so it's not major updates. Ngeh. Just letting you people know that I'm doing just fine and I'm good to go. See you!

HELLO! It's been some time since I've actually posted something on... this site. :P Sorry lah. Been lazy and had nothing to blog about when there were actually a lot of things going on. For instance, RAMADHAN BAZAARRR!!! Amazing food and drinks and lots of choices! I really want to go though... :(

Anyway, the Muslims have started their month of fasting, the Buddhists have started the Hungry Ghost Festival, and we Christians will be starting our 40 Day of Prayer and Fasting soon. But I've already started. Along with my friend, we're fasting from DotA. It's been 5 days since we've started. And it's gonna be the 6th day soon. Oh how tormented we are. But it's all good. I guess..

Nothing much. Trials are soon.  A lot of things to cover. Curse you SPM. But I can't blame it all. I chose this path, and I'll have to complete it. GOD BE WITH ME. 

I don’t know why. But I think that my parents may not like my friends so much. Even if they are from church. Why? I don’t know. But apparently, they are a waste of time. So my friends are a waste of time? Then what’s the point of me going to school if friends are a waste of time? What’s the point of it? Can’t I even talk to a friend to comfort that friend of mine? Or are you too blind to see that I’m important in my friends lives.

I’ve spent a lot of time complaining that I’m not worth it because I don’t have any close friends to really talk to or just to chill out and relax with them. I have never gotten to know a lot of my friends in church but I enjoy spending time with them. Why? Cause they fill the gap that you don’t. I feel comfortable there and not like a nuisance. I can see that I’m not wanted at home a lot of times you know that? I’m not blind. I’m always keeping my distance cause I know when I come close enough, all you’re gonna do is snap at me. Worst of all, it’s not that I don’t have motivation to study. I just don’t have the mood to study because I’m tired and also being at home pisses me off. 

If I’m such a nuisance even though I don’t do anything, I shouldn’t be at home.

If my friends were a waste of time, you shouldn’t have let me out of the house in the first place.

If you only want good results and nothing more. Typical asian parents.

You know not my frustration. My hurt. YOU KNOW NOTHING. You don’t even see the achievements I have. You only see the failures. So why should I bother? You don’t notice my achievements but my failures.

If I would I could.

If I had the chance I would do it.

If I had the opportunity, I'd take it.

If I let go, I let go.

If I'm passionate, let it burn.

If it were possible, I'd be happy.

Life is full of doubts. But when life give you lemons, you make lemonade or at least something that requires lemons. What you have now is what you get. Make use of it. God can make it even greater for He was the one that gave it to you. Euphorism isn't easy to achieve. Satisfaction yes. But you still have to work for it.

When God made you, He made you with gifts that others might or might not have. That's His gift to us and our gift back to Him is using it for a good purpose and expanding that gift.

If there was even a hint of it, I'd take that chance.

Nothing Is Impossible is the long awaited studio album release from Australian praise and worship band Planetshakers.

This album, the first to come out of the studio in over 5 years, encapsulates the passion and energy that they produce live as well as highlighting the cutting edge values of producer Joth Hunt, and featuring the world class rhythm section of Mike Webber (drums) and Mark Peric (bass). The vocal sounds are as diverse as they are genuine and the title track, ‘Nothing Is Impossible’, features the dynamic vocals of Grammy Award winning artist, Israel Houghton.

This album will take you on a journey from the raw energy of ‘Bring It On’ to the deeply moving words of ‘No One Like You’, and the powerful declaration of ‘You Are God’.

Included with this product is a bonus DVD featuring 9 songs as well as loads of bonus content

**Extracted from http://www.planetshakers.com

Well there you have it. The new Planetshakers album is officially out in Australia and New Zealand and will be sold globally in June 2011. Very very fresh album. One of their best studio albums yet. If you haven't gotten yours yet, it's worth the wait. Especially if you haven't really heard the songs. All brand new songs except Nothing is Impossible which came out in the Deeper album. It may sound the same, but the twist is there.

I give this album a 4.9/5 rating. 

On the side note, I WILL GO to Planetshakers Conference 2012. Better start earning my money. Heh.

Weeping in the middle of the night seems to be the only thing I can do right now. I don't know whether it's meant to be or not, the two of us being together. It seems to be worse each month. I really wish you didn't send that text. I really wish you didn't. To reply you would mean to yell at you even more. But I'm not going to do that, no I'm not. Pride has nothing to do here. Neither does emotions. Kinda pathetic to keep checking to see whether you're online or offline on msn. I could type more, but I don't have the heart to do anything any more.

It's like... I wasn't meant to love or care for at all. I keep breaking everything.

I feel like you deserve better cause you do deserve better.